Hey Everyone! See I am already updating again! Look at me go. One of these days, I’ll be one of those people that update daily with new information. Well, maybe, but that’s probably not true at all.
So since my last update, I have seriously looked into two different craft shows, and already signed up for one of them. Now that’s good stuff. Those two are both at churches at home (Marietta) that I attend. One is Holy Trinity Lutheran which is where I grew up and still attend regularly, and then the other is Due West Methodist which I occasionally attend with my family. I definitely plan on selling in the two craft sales those churches hold. Now I just have to figure out WHAT to sell.
As of last weekend, I am a proud owner of a Nook. Of course the second I bought it, I started knitting it a cover. I used the pattern posted by Vickie Howell for Caron. Here is the link. She calls it a Snookie, which I found quite comical. So I made one in green and I’ve now started making another with a modified pattern just for the heck of it.
So that’s the surface of what is going on, but recently I feel like there is a completely different layer that I am just beginning to surface. My life recently has just taken off. I was given this awesome opportunity with Lighthouse and it has given me the opportunity to meet so many amazing people. Sometimes, I feel trapped, insignificant, inadequate, and insecure. I know all of these astounding people that are truly doing amazing things with their lives. They have an incredible belief in God and live their lives completely through him, following his plan. I know what I believe and I feel like I understand what God is calling me to do right now. I feel like he wants me to know him better and to feel so secure in my relationship with him that I can then share Him with others.
However, I am just plain struggling. I am struggling with some of my actions in the past and just my attachment to earthly things. I know that God forgives me for everything that I have ever done, and that he gave his only son for ME, for ALL of us. And yet I sit here, so inadequate, searching and trying to achieve so many meaningless things. Why do I try to achieve these things? No idea. I know what matters in the end, but how do I live a life here on Earth that would mean nothing to most of those around me but everything to God? For instance, selling things… That would make me happy. It would give my work worth, and it would make me money which is of course necessary to live on this Earth. However, does that matter at all to God? I mean what does my knitting and selling stuff do for him? Nothing. My knitting for the homeless, premature babies, families experiencing unimaginable pain… now that probably means a little more to Him.
But I guess that is my struggle… resolving the difference and the meaning behind why I am living my life here on Earth like I am. I want to show God in all that I do each day. That has been my prayer for years now. I just hope that I am, and I hope that I am not ignoring God’s true plan for me.
Well I better be going, let me know if you have any insights to what I am experiencing and the journey I am traveling. Thanks for reading!
Okay, here's the deal.
ReplyDeleteDecent snookie. Still don't know how I feel about the name, but whatever.
Struggle = good. Anyone who says they're not struggling in at least some aspect of their relationship with God is probs lying. Knowing what you believe is the biggest part of the battle, so you're on the right track.
You knitting stuff to sell does nothing for God? Okay you can keep telling yourself that, but I think you're wrong. It's different than knitting donations, sure, but that doesn't mean there's no good in it. Let's take an example here. You know that place Chick-fil-A? That's a pretty darn successful business, and it wouldn't exist if they weren't trying to make money and hadn't started out as a way for Truett Cathy to do so. However, I personally would never say that Chick-fil-A "does nothing for God." They make it ridiculously well known that they stand for something bigger than chicken, and they take efforts to tell other people about that something bigger. The fact that that company exists profitably makes it possible for good things to be done, like in the philanthropies they support with the money they make.
If you're going to sell your stuff at a huge markup and gauge buyers, then I'd say you have issues. But people will buy your things because those things make them happy. Craft sales at churches create and support community; they're good for making money, but they do more. Just stop looking at it as something you're doing totally for yourself, and you'll realize that you don't have to do it just for yourself. K, deal.
And I'm posting this through my lj account because it was an option. And this feels like lj. Don't you deny it.